点点滴滴的回忆，现在想想我算是陪SG一路走过来的，不，应该说SG陪我走过来的。
印象最深的是secondary school最后一年的10月他们解散了，我坐在purple room的书桌前生闷气。（我们宿舍的门是紫色的所以叫purple room）现在想来有点奇怪，那时候没有网络我是怎么得知他们解散来着？
初记忆是I want you，我躺在蓝色的沙发上看天籁村，就是那个女的，还是那个女的主持的！（众：哪个女的啊？）哎，反正就是那个女的啊，她往那儿一站我就知道是天籁村。印象是音乐很酷，MV画面切换很快。哥哥姐姐在我旁边走来走去，我一会儿看MV一会儿看他们。结果连歌手是谁都没搞清楚。
接着是Truly Madly Deeply，最纯洁最喜欢最感动的现代歌曲（曾经非常非常痴迷right here waiting，其实就算现在听开头的钢琴还是会小感动，这支经典好歹是我的英文歌入门）TMD是在广播上听到的，没记错的话是上海东方啥啥啥台，每周末都有欧美排行。因为这首歌很好听我每周那个时间都会听，起初是十几名，后来爬到第一名，主持人还说“SG终于感动了听众”。我录在磁带上听写歌词想学唱，可是想想看97年我干啥来着，初一啊！靠，怪不得听不懂，注了一大串拼音。
同年SG发行同名专辑，黑白封面D&D半个脸各占一旁 - 至今仍是我最喜欢的封面设计之一，朴实又很有深度。但也就因为这半张脸害我以为站左边的Darren是女的！还跟好几个朋友确认“你仔细听有没有听到女的声音？” 合声部分确实有！我私自决定D&D两个都唱，而且Daniel是主唱，Darren（女）是副主唱。看到这里晕死人不偿命啊！
初中毕业，我带着I want you和TMD的记忆去了新加坡，在Juron East mall的一家小店里看到熟悉的黑白封面很（不知道什么感觉，忘了），不过瞟了一眼标价在20以上就走人了。后来I knew I loved you在电台上不停的播，深夜熄灯了我抱着radio进被窝听count down。Power 98~ （我很喜欢唱'power ninety-eight ~ ' 这一句的）那时候住的是blue room（again, 因为宿舍门是蓝色的）。不久后去CD RAMA买下Affirmation，记忆里是一片闪烁的黑兰色。Affirmation是我买的第二张正版碟，知道第一张是什么吗。。。Britney的Baby one more time （ET知道后曾鄙视我的music taste）。说良心话，我还蛮喜欢Britney的第一张专辑的，后来这位absoltely no premarital sex的纯洁小女生就往bitch的道路上迈开越走越远。
继续说Affirmation，回到宿舍了我给坐在旁边的霄霄听I don't know you anymore，反馈不错。后来（还是在听之前？）我吃香蕉，XX说“颖越，你像个猩猩。” xinGxinG，很浓重的京片子，带着我这样的南方人所望尘莫及的鼻音。XX后来耐心纠正我的后鼻音，可惜出现反效果。某次我试图表达“他和她终于分了”，脱口而出的是“终于疯了”。politician Hu一阵狂笑。
似乎和SG专属回忆有些脱线，但我确实清清楚楚记得这些附带杂物。
搬进4人1间的purple room后，我放Affirmation给桂子和ZY听，一边讲解每首歌背后的故事（那天在网上看到采访，Darren说了很多创作过程，偶很感动）。结果桂和ZY一脸空白，最后直截了当的说“好无聊”，备受打击。
印象最深的是You can still be free。Daniel的邻居家有人过世，院子的树头停了只鸟。Spread your wings就是这么来的，治愈系的歌。Crash and burn也是，那时看到forum里有人说多亏这首歌他才放弃自杀的想法。可我现在才知道Darren是在多么糟蹋和孤独的情况下写下这首曲子，一首S.O.S的歌能拯救S.O.S的人，只能说我们都很孤独，只盼有人理解。
Affirmation后我去补课了，把SG专辑买回家。很喜欢Santa Monica，也很喜欢Universe。很不能理解为什么那阶段特别喜欢Universe，只觉得非常温柔。歌词的话其实是有点色的。
除夕夜我们在小Eton Hall前开晚会，有人放I knew I loved you。桂子听着哭了，我想她再怎么样还是喜欢这首歌的吧。虽然问她也说不上感动的理由。
后来就别提了，吹了，散了。靠，才两张专辑。
为了纪念？买了正版的superstar and cannonball live VCD。注：现在打死我都不买VCD。
年底假期的时候买了盗版的SG the video collection，看TMD的mv秋叶落一地，女主角很漂亮。非常喜欢D&D在片尾回到小酒吧的气氛感觉。巴黎是金灿灿的。
解散后Daniel消失，Darren走个人秀。那时候我是很喜欢Daniel的，因为长得养眼。也是很喜欢Darren的，因为歌词写得好，很有才又很搞笑。不过偏心Daniel，在他消失之际google过蛛丝马迹的行踪，说是在经营自己的band。这样也很好。
（空白）
Darren出了solo专辑Spin，买了，很好听，很欣慰，很满足。还有同好跟我讨论有多好听，我很感动。记得罗婵喜欢I miss you，我也是很喜欢这首，不过更喜欢Good enough。徐桑榆看booklet说Darren坐在板凳上翘二郎腿的那张照片跟我很像，我仔细一看确实。脸型和神态有点相似。
年底搬家把CD壳子全扔了，只留下booklet和CD。我现在是后悔到想跳楼啊！！Spin的被我扔了，SG的两张倒留下来了。其实就只有这两张留下来了。每年回去整理CD的时候我都会想，我是真的很喜欢SG。
大学来了加拿大，Darren出了Tension & Spark，我还是从学校网站上荡下来的，听了几首歌就没再听。风格变化太大，不是很悦耳。Dublin Sky这个歌名倒是印象深刻。
不久后Daniel结婚，我和Jady在gtalk里抱怨说他老婆长得很普通。反正我是不喜欢那个长相的。
不久后Darren结婚，爆出他是gay。惊讶，不过替他高兴。boyfriend搞3D动画，和他一样是个很搞笑的人。我很羡慕这样的关系和融洽，虽然现实并非想象如此完美。
离SG的音乐越来越远了。
不知什么时候出了TMC精选，现在开始timeline越来越模糊。
Darren走indie了，开始关注他的新动向。决定不再把他和SG的过去混淆。依旧是动听的声音，但不是Daniel的谱曲。我不太喜欢电子乐，不过也有不少我能接受喜欢的歌，这样也不错。
觉得Darren很辛苦很努力，几乎是从私人感情上想支持一下他的新事业（D，你赚的比我多多多多少啊！往你的金库里飘一粒沙你也不在乎吧。）不过如果完全不喜欢的话我也不会买了。
SG成往事了，昨天回首了一下有点把持不住。网上有很多fans做的MV以前都不看的，现在看了觉得很要命。自己的昨天在眼前滑过，两人同台的辉煌和默契再也看不到了。
并非特意煽情，贴几个souvenir上来一起念念旧。
My favourite quote comes first. I laughed to death last night reading it.
When interviewed about the band's name.
Daniel: We're not savage at all. We are quite polite and quiet.
Darren: We hate gardening as well.
"And I, sometimes I just miss him. Sometimes I miss him on-stage, you know? I, uhm, we'll be together, but alone. And it's like we lead these, these lives which are simultaneous. It's like they're parallel lives and they're going along in the same direction, but they never really meet. But that's what's special, I guess, about it." - Darren Hayes in the 'Parallel Lives' documentary
"When [Darren] came in [for his audition for Red Edge], he looked completely different from how he does now... blond hair, really young, baby face, slightly overweight. But as soon as he sang, I thought, 'Man! This guy's got a really beautiful, emotional voice.' After all those singers we'd auditioned, he was a breath of fresh air." - Daniel on Teen People - US, 9/00
More quotes
Fan-made tribute to the duo, featuring Darren's song 'Where You Want To Be' (B-side of single 'I miss you')
Where you want to be
by Darren Hayes
Hey there stranger
Do you remember?
You were a part of my life
Early December
Think I remember?
Sentiment cuts like a knife
The seasons are changing
Life's rearranging
Full of good times
Would a have beens
Its all your fault
And wherever you been
And how time goes
And though I don't even know
How to fill in the spaces
of the love you've erased in my life
Are you where you wanted to be?
Did you get there easily?
Did I make you sacrifice?
Did you make a sharp left
When you should have turned right?
Are you where you wanted to be?
Did you sell off all your gold
Did you trade it in?
Did you wait for love
Or settle for someone to hold?
And barely symphonic
But strangely ironic
Moments contained in one glance
Oh how i adored you
But now i'm ignored by you
Nowhere a tint of romance
And now its vaguely familiar
i think i remember sharing every single intimacy
It doesn't seem so strange to me that we barely entertained
Even the politest of phrases
But sometimes at night
I conjure you up in my mind
Are you where you wanted to be?
Did you get there easily?
Did i make a sharp left
When you should have turned right?
Are you where you wanted to be?
Did you sell off all your gold
Did you trade it in?
Did you wait for love
Or settle for someone to hold?
While I was busy
Perfecting the art
Of deflecting compliments
I took it too far
And i let a ripple run right through my heart
Of battle stations we're building
You and i just grew apart
We grew apart
While i decided
To make everyone else happy
i just put aside
My foolish pride
I guess I denied
My own desire
I was too busy pleasing
To ever be pleased
I forgot how to breathe
Or question anything
Or ask why?
Am I?
Am I where I wanted to be?
Did i get here easily?
Did I make a sacrifice?
Did I take a sharp left
When i should have turned right?
Am I where i wanted to be?
Can i sell of all of my god?
Can I trade it in?
Will I wait for Love
Or settle for somebody to hold
I'd settle for somebody to hold now
You know that i've been up and i've been down
i've been picked up and spun around
id do it all again
if i could just have somebody to hold now
I just need somebody to hold now
Could somebody hold me now?
I just want somebody to hold me now
I'd do it all again
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