all these twelve thousand years

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Genesis of Aquarion
Composed & Produced by: Yoko Kanno & 保刈久明
Lyrics by AKINO
Vocal: AKINO featuring bless4

Again and again you've grown
Again and again you set out far away
Even though my face all weathered and wretched,
Just to sing out your name once more
...
I remenber sitting with you
Underneath the tree of life
We listened to every fainted cry
Of the creatures there on the day the warld began
Looking at everything that I've lost
And almost everything that I've loved
I'll hold them all tightly in my arms
Wondering where I am, so please tell me where to go

All of the answers you seek
lie hidden in the sun
If I hadn't met you my life
would've been in the darkness forever
In my wings are the powers of immortality
But by meeting you my whole life has changed
You give light to me hope to me strength into my life

All this time these twelve thousand years
I know 愛してる
Eight thousand years from the time that I've met you
my love grows strong than ever before
Words can't say of this time I've been waiting to share my love with you
I'd give you my life, I would give you the world
to see you smiling every day
One hundred million and two thousand years from now 愛してる
I want you to know since you came in my life
every day, every night you give light into the darkest skies
All these twelve yhousand years I've been loving you

break these chains

Chara - also a singer from Shunji Iwai's movie. Her voice is very peculiar, emotional yet child like. It takes some listening and then you might start to like her. Might.
Just going to recommend this song 'break these chains'. I find it rather touching, although I don't understand what she's saying.(found the lyrics later)

download : Chara - Break these chains

Lyrics: Chara
Music: Chara
Source: http://sekaiseifuku.net/clyrics.html

Break These Chain

Jibun no shita koto ni odoroite nakitaku naru
Kangaeteru yoyuu nai yo
Datte, sono koe wo mou ichido kikeru nara....

Atashi no onegai wo kiite kureru tsumori nara
Ashita aeru deshou?
Kowai kao shitari shinai kara Mou, modorenai no?

Ano hito ni kirawareru... mukanshin yori mashi ne......
Otoko dakara shikata nai koto nante, nattoku dekiru you na otona ni nante

Atashi no onegai wo kiite kureru tsumori nara
Ashita aeru deshou? Kowai kao shitari shinai kara.........

Ne, ne, ne, ne anata kara, te wo nobashite
Te wo, te wo, te wo, te wo .......anata kara........
"Motto soba ni oide" tte itte...
Atama no naka de iu no yo Iie, kirawaretemo ii no yo
Nakanaide
Daremo waruku nai

Honto no koto.......honto no kimochi

Atashi no onegai wo kiite kureru tsumori nara
Ashita aeru deshou? Kowai kao shitari shinai kara

Ne, ne, ne, ne anata kara te wo nobashite
........te wo, te wo, te wo, te wo anata kara.......

Ii no? (Ii no? Ii no? Ii no?) Hanaretemo ii no?
Aitai demo... te wo te wo hanasu kare
Te wo te wo hanasu kare
Te wo te wo hanasu


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Break These Chain

So startled at what I myself have done, I want to cry
There's no time to think about it
Because if I could hear your voice once more....

If you're going to listen to my wish
I can see you tomorrow, can't I?
I won't make an angry face or anything. Can't we go back anymore?

He's going to hate me... but that's better than indifference
I refuse to say "he's a guy; it can't be helped," to grow up to be a person who can accept that

If you're going to listen to my wish
I can see you tomorrow, can't I?
I won't make an angry face or anything..........

Please, please, please, please, reach out your hand
Your hand, your hand, your hand, your hand ......from you
Say "Come closer"...
You can say it in your mind No, I don't care if you do start to hate me
I won't cry
It's nobody's fault

If you're going to listen to my plea
I can see you tomorrow, can't I?
I won't make an angry face or anything

Please, please, please, please, reach out your hand
......your hand, your hand, your hand, from you

Is it okay? (Okay? Okay? Okay?) Is it okay to let go?
I want to see him but... he lets go of my hand, my hand
He lets go of my hand, my hand
Lets go of my hand, my hand

reading

Just reading for myself and not for exams could be quite fun. Spending an hour or two flipping through textbooks or notes with the music playing isn't that bad after all. Since I set my player to 'play all' mode recently, just now one of Namie Amuro song popped up. Namie... I haven't listened to her for a long time. Reminds me how she cried everytime she sang 'Can you celebrate?' on stage.



Namie Amuro 181920 Best collection - her golden golden time, considering how she DEFINED 'style' back then.

i'm such a lunatic

I don't understand ANYTHING on my immunology notes and I just realized a test is coming... (sweating, swearing...) and I've been shirking off all responsiblities lately. Not buying groceries, not care if there's proper meal and I don't feel like going on MSN anymore. MSN always gives me a weird imaginary feeling of being connected to the outside which I'm rather sick of at the moment. Even if I appear offline, the popping sounds made by people signing in and off are completely annoying. I wonder if all these could be classfied as anxiety syndrome. Just before I woke up this morning, I dreamt of me, my dad and mum going on a trip together. We stopped by a sunlite forest and decided to take a photo and I was thinking, oh great! Finally we could have a family photo! Then I woke up, a bit numb in my head and somewhat hovering on the edge of derpession, trying to reason why I had the dream at all. We never went on any sort of trip together, except for the yearly visit to my grandma's and we haven't had any family photo taken ever since I went on high school. Then I remembered several years ago when we were having dinner with my dad's friends, they asked me if I was homesick. Even before I could put my words together, my dad answered for me 'No, she never missed home.' I wasn't even sure if that was a complement. Thinking back, he must be rather sad, my dad. This insensitive eccentric daughter I am.

I haven't talked to them for weeks. I said in my last email 'let's chat on msn this weekend.' but when weekend comes, I don't want to go on MSN. I'm scared. I don't know where to start because nothing's going particularly right at this moment and I don't want to talk to them about that, my academics, my future goals, my relationships, my happiness, my run-of-the-mill daily report. 'I don't want a career in science. I'm constanly unhappy. More often than I want to, I'm scared and depressed. I want to disappear from where I am and start anew in a place where nobody knows my name. I'm afraid I can't meet your expectations. I'm constantly guilty and nauseated whenever I think of my future.' If I were to speak the truth, I'm sure they would buy the next ticket available, fly over and open up my brain for good. Therefore, in the end, I don't want to talk. I hover my mouse aimlessly up and down the MSN contact list, hover around my dad's name, feeling sad and outrageously lost and in the end, I signed off. I can't even remember when everything started to go terribly wrong.

And I need to study right now, even if just to block out the noise.

mysterious track no.2

Ah I haven't blogged for quite a while ^^
I put my media player to 'play all' mode and I found some unexpected wonderful tracks I never before noticed. And when I flipped my mouse over to check what song that was, all I saw was 'track 02'. The next time, same thing happened, and the next time... and... I shall call it 'mysterious track 02' day.

Happy Valentine's Day!- a day I don't celebrate but enjoy the general atmosphere. Speaking of Valentine's, we have Chinese Valentine's Day (aka Qi Xi) which I personally find more romantic. Wikipedia entry if you're interested. Oh and there is 'White Day' in Japan - March 14th. Men give back presents to girls who gave them chocolates on Valentine's. This's rather hilarious ^.^

website updated

I finally learnt how to do iframe layouts. Ever since Sherry lent me Photoshop & Painter... it's been doing tremendous damage on my schedule since I have such weak self-control T_T Now I have to make up for the time I spent on designs. Hell ahead.