before sleep

they're re-watching cinderella's story, guizi & zhongxiao. coz guizi thinks the guy's cute. and the comments most pple give on the last kissing scene- it's not a you're-the-one kiss, rather go-and-get-a-hotelroom type of kiss. .. whatever

randomly 'blogged' others, left me rather speechless. some sites totatlly porno, some political wholesome, lots on sales n business, 9 out of 10 are on Bush(even comes with porno pics)... But even those are better than the organic chem notes laid out before me, rotting away. and funny thing is, most pple start off their blog with this sentence in common (small variantions but they're all the same)- 'not sure who'll be reading my blog, or who cares any way'. key words 'who'll read' & 'who cares'. started me thinking. i used to keep diaries, good old paper diary. (haha, reminded me of another blog i bumped into two days ago. it's really a bizarre diary written by a jap 29 years old man. <- that's how he introduced himself as, verbatum. 29 is not old though... since the japs pronounce/write 'r' as 'l' or the other way around i'm not sure. bottom line is they can't distinguish b/w 'r' & 'l' coz there's no 'r' in jap pronounciation. The guy wrote 'I'm studying English. and this diaLy is also for that' took me a while to realize what he's trying to say. and continueing with 'If anyone finds mistakes i'll be happy to collect(read: correct) them' and other outrageously funny(not his mistake) words like 'i rode the exercise bike(gym workout)' or the rather short but nonetheless mind-stimulating review on 'finding nemo' - the first scene is pitiful is good. well, just jokes, no stereotyping here or malicious taunts. he's very serious about improving his english coz he really corrected his mistakes and rewrote every entry. and i'm in no good position to remark non native english speakers coz i'm also one of them. sometimes i do feel it's kind of hard trying to express tiny little things in another language, as if an itch that cannot be pinpointed.

back to blog vs. diary. so why would so many people incidentally agree on 'who'll read' and 'who care' thinking mode. it's the nature of blogging. it's huge and unless u advertise it, it'll probably be read only by whoever writes it. but instead of keeping a traditional diary, blogs allow interactions with strangers. to give a random travel pass to your thoughts. maybe you'll be hitched by a companion. i did write an essay on this topic back in junior college, general paper no. ?? I wouldn't bother to keep track of the no. of GP essay I wrote for exams. i took a totally biased pt. of argument, all favours to old diary. gd thing abt blogging: nobody knows how ugly your handwriting is. and you can stick live specimen to ur paper diary, whether you're aware of it or not. last time i flipped thru last yr's entry, I saw a mosquito corpse pressed against a corner , perfectly clean n 2D. excuse my sick humour. i did press flower petals, and magazine cuttings, photos, quotes scribbled on pieces of paper, postcards, birthday cards etc. and later on i had to stick a small paper pocket onto the back of the cover page just to stuff all the inserts in coz they start to slip out of the distorted diary book. and i see the change in my own handwritting. the only thing that's constant is change. I read somewhere of how handwrittings can be interpreted to give a person's character. for example, write letter 't', or big 'T', doesn't matter, if the horizontal stroke is long->open, extrovert, short->introvert. and the angle of inclination. perfectly straight up n down, lack of creativity n stuff. it's not v. true though. but I do appreciate artistic handwritings, curls but not too excessive. I'm criticised for having horrible illegible handwritings- too flowery. and I can't help it. Some say that if in a rush, all the excessive curls will be gone and all things will be reduced to simple strokes. If only I could do that in the last few minutes of my exams(there're countless exams i ran out of time for...) ...

i MUST sleep. the agenda i laid out for tmr, already today, past 0:00 already!! is HUGE!! TERRIFYING! STUPEFYING!! HORRIFYING! if I don't rush, I won't make it for the exam. an entire life's worth of organic chem knowledge compressed into 3 days of preparation all for a final test that lasts 3hrs.... 333333333 , is actually my lucky no, which looks disgusting for now. '3' is a no. that conveys the message of 'moderation'. Moderation in life makes you happy. not too much, neither too little. but NOW, 3 days of preparation is FAR FROM ENOUGH! and 3 hrs of exam is FAR TOO LONG. going nuts.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz, oyasumi.

anohter Jap joke.
an eng man was running an election in Japan, by the name of 'sir williams'(made up, but it is a TRUE story) to show their support, a bunch of Japs put up a HUGE banner right in front of his mansion. which tragically read ' May Sir Williams have a successful erection'.
erection=election

I'd rather die in the house.