Today's a bad day

I have a dysfunctional family, underneath. I'm the bug that throws the system astray but the bug is theirs to nurture. What a failure and I wouldn't attribute it to myself alone. I'm just about to be torn by hatred and gratitude, the latter never shines as bright as it should. Tell my conscience to shut up when the word justified screams its verdict. For all I care, I hate the current state of affairs. I hate it very very much.