Blue gate crossing

蓝色大门

导演：易智言
时间：2002
主演：桂纶镁/陈柏霖
片长：85分钟
地区：台湾



So that's where accidentally Kelly street comes from, huh! Where strangers and friends, sometimes meet.

看完了蓝色大门。起初的节奏挺漫，也因为是青春校园剧有点不屑一顾，基本上是以纯粹消遣的心情去观看的。第一个吸引我的情节是孟和张跳踢踏舞似的一顿狂踩贴在地上的情书，真是很好笑。张一直都很喜欢模仿孟，从起初红灯处你进一尺，我进一丈的小孩子比赛开始，到铁栏杆前学着她说话，篮球场上踱来踱去。这种恋情从新奇开始逐渐扩大，直到孟说自己喜欢的是女生，关系到这里嘎的刹车。

唯一觉得铺垫不够的是孟的心理活动，反正我是没看出来她喜欢那只把暗恋人名字写整本的小女生。结尾的地方也险些败笔，两个人坐下来要开始引用名句讲大道理了，真的不必那么公式化。最后白墙上的涂鸦“张士豪到此一游。I was here！”已足够表现经过的可贵。

总体有不少巧妙雕琢的细节，前后也都完整呼应了，故事结局也很自然。该失去的都失去了，该有的也都有了。哎，不过，孟只吻了一下林就被甩了个干净。乖乖，你真的是非常非常惨。

桂纶镁饰演的孟克柔很可爱，看到介绍说她在蔡健雅的《无底洞》MV中出现过。有点惊讶，因为我K过两次这首歌，但都没有印象见过那张脸。

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下了一整天的雨，打在房顶上嘭嘭作响。我快被这秋凉冻死了！

Who do I make a deal with

If we could swap our experiences, would you bear my pain and I yours? Would we resolve the guilt? Would the millions I'm sorrys come flooding out of our conscience just to make the misunderstanding more condemned？Would it change anything?

The most powerful line in 'Running up the hill' that does for me is 'We both matter, don't we?'.

Kate Bush's voice is rich with power.
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Now playing: Placebo - 20th Century Boy
via FoxyTunes

The warning light?

When does the warning light appear before a man breaks?
你是不可能先知的，投入痛苦才能重新来过。但又并非打一针就能根除病源，流感是常客了。

在和朋友怄气的时候我很难看到别人的优点，像个着了火的瞎子。不知道能不能改掉这个坏习惯呢。惯性是个可怕的东西。。。。。。

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Now playing: Darren Hayes - Like It or Not
via FoxyTunes

Moony no.2

Change of plan, I'm not going to TO because ticket price flew up again. Whoever says to wait till last day for the price to drop should slaughter thyself.

Besides price another powerful factor stems from repeated self-questioning of how much the trip is worth.

同事说，这个人疯掉了，肯定是回去看男人！要不就是暗恋对象！

我是很想回去看呀，但一想到对方并不这么想就打折扣了。这个是实话。见到了很开心很开心，500块我一定走，1000块我还是不愿意那么自作多情的。何必，下次好了。

哦，还是现实利己的不得了，应该说受伤后有自我保护意识了，不过烟还是很难戒掉的。下次大概在11月左右，要去最起码待满3天。

还有，谁说重色轻友来着，我满脑子都是跟朋友会面的快乐场景！

啊，这样一来经济反而周转过来了，到了11月估计能消除赤字。

Moony

举头也望不到明月的温哥华天空，今天阴云密布，风冷飕飕。

如果看不见月亮，古人是否也照样吟月品酒？何苦呢大哥。

其实现在很困了，但又有了抵触睡眠的情绪。还是睡吧。。。

我是爆冲动的人，决定感恩节回多伦多。冷静后想过，如果桂子不在那里我还会不会回去？不会，答案简单的有点荒谬。我大概已经没有别的思考能力了。

睡了睡了，明天怕是要体力不支。

Bourne reborn

Highlight:

When Matt's silhouette outlined in a bright bluish lining floated like a static mattress while camera switched back and forth between this silent image and the buzzing scandals, Tramy asked in a whisper, or probably just convincing herself 'You think he's gonna move?'

Why not, the invincible Bourne is born where he drowns. And then, like a water skipper, he swims to freedom. Happy jazzy crap!

I have to say the music is a strong backup to the action tensions, so is the choice of location for the elaborate marshal fight scene. I can't even remember where it is but jumping your way across rooftops is very fun.

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I stare at computer 12h/day on average. Should I buy insurance for my intensively abused eyeballs.

Girls

今天和Tramy吵架，因为我们两个办事风格不同，一个直一个闷。结果为了要不要买4节电池的芝麻小事爆发，最后说得都狂不开心。摊牌，有啥不能接受的全倒出来。看Tra不开心我忍不住哭，那人自己说着说着也哭，闹了一会儿两个人又受不了这闹剧有多愚蠢开始笑。感觉像回到小学时候动不动就感情发飚止也止不住。C'mon man, where's my 23? 还问，你是不是period要来了？听说来之前很容易哭。还是讲出来好，不吵感情还不好呢。果然是女孩子才干得出来的事，提起来会脸红。Tra说，你看那人也是不说出来的，怪不得头发都憋白了。我说，男人不好意思计较吧？总结，男人真可怜。

今天总算把itunes清理过了，把以前的science podcasts全删了。重新定了business podcasts，转行要彻底。不过还是舍不得Naked Scientist，也就留了这一个。

真的是非常难忘的一天，有很多原因，以后肯定还会再想起哈哈。

Blog gender quiz

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Pig Pie

50.0%男性倾向,50.0%女性倾向 评点：文章风格清新，理性与感性兼备，简隽练达，有自然率真之美。 yodao | 博客男女

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Now is the time to ABSORB LIKE A SPONGE and OPEN UP LIKE A PEACOCK.

Creative Commons Photography Contest

Creative Commons China Mainland Contest
说明

·比赛组织
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3.支持媒体：《大众摄影》、《数码摄影》、今日艺术网 ……

·比赛奖项
本次比赛参赛作品分为社会人文类、自然环境类、人物肖像类三个类别。每一类别分设，一等奖1名、二等奖2名、三等奖3名、入选奖20名

·投稿时间
起止时间：2007年9月1日至2007年10月10日

·参赛要求
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3.参赛作品必须为参赛者本人原创作品。由多幅照片合成或对拍摄内容有删减的图片均不可参赛。

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有兴趣有作品的NB们上吧！本来我有点跃跃欲试的，但多看了几眼以前的照片觉得越来越不罩，也不是不好看，但是太常见以至于没特色。人物照的精髓在于捕获瞬间的感动吧，喜欢拍老人的很多，安详丰富的脸早成镜头下的宝，但逐渐泛滥，在拿老人当题材的摄影师中也并非人人都懂得如何展现。要真的让照片传达到心底深处而非平白捕捉细节是要很多功夫的，不过我不懂怎样欣赏。贴些有感觉的上来。


作者：月亮雨
作品标题：寂寞，不是秋的性格
作品说明：
04年10月2日，内蒙坝上的秋天，在染尽秋林的梦里，仿如一个动人的童话的诗篇


作者：月亮雨
作品标题：坝上，塞北的雪
作品说明：07年1月1日，在这个举国欢庆的日子，迎来了内蒙冬日坝上的第一场雪，塞北的雪，一如我想像中那般让人纷乱情迷


作者：月亮雨
作品标题：北海日落
作品说明：
05年6月23日，位于广西的日幕下的北海，在一片夕阳的笼罩中，显得格外迷人


作者：一望无际大海
作品标题：翱翔
2007年5月19日 韩国仁川港


作者：NK金广角
作品标题：冬韵
作品说明：
2005年元月摄于雾凇岛。


作者：chookia
作品标题：Predator
作品说明：Malaysia


作者：雨飘飘
作品标题：飘若惊鸿
作品说明：中国 黑龙江省齐齐哈尔市扎龙湿地


作者：nemo
作品标题：sad
作品说明：Malaysia

Nude Beach

见到了三年没见的殷颖，一顿日本自助餐边聊边吃，但未开足马力，胃有点满足了见好就收。可现在凌晨一点多我在打这几句话的时候，肚子饿得咕咕叫。

走去UBC的时候我说想去看传说中的Nude Beach，殷说裸的只有男人没有女人，而且还都是中老年男人。我“哦”表示没差，俩人往赤裸海滩方向前进。半途中有辆车停下来问路，车主裸着上身问我们Nude Beach怎么走，殷很礼貌的指路。等那车又开远了，我说，似乎应该喊See you there！我们傻笑几声，后来就不笑了，因为赶了几百米路后突见一赤条条的人在马路对面大大咧咧的走，边问Nude Beach在这附近么？正是那车主。

殷开始紧张，有点结巴的再次跟他确认路线。那人实在裸的夸张，我眼睛不知道往哪儿放，好在没戴眼镜只隐约觉着一具白的不够均匀的人体在晃动，而且视线里本能的在那活儿禁地打了个大红差。虽够不上对心脏的致命冲击，但也被鸡皮到了。后来我们再谈及那人就直接管他叫that flasher，殷诉苦说“都讲别来Nude Beach了，我的纯洁心灵受到严重污染。”

从Marine Drive马路到Nude Beach的落差挺大，下坡险上坡喘，但到达了有水天落阳的地方就至上的开心，啊这样的地方是能完全忘记自己的。生活在陆地上便憧憬着亿万年前曾经养育万物的海洋。我是个简简单单的浮油plankton？









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初中一年级全家移民去美国的徐思成昨天突然在MSN上跟我说话，我都记不起是谁，搞清楚了后随便聊了几句发现两个人的地理位置挺近。虽然西雅图和温哥华都在西海岸，但在我这个没车的人看来还是有些距离的。徐却爽快的说，I can't believe we're so close！哦，你说近就近吧，有车的人计量单位跟我是不一样的。然后说下周末就可以开过来找我玩，还真是火速同学团圆啊。虽然仍觉得不可思议，但能叙旧还挺让人期盼的呢。有朋自远方来，不亦乐乎？稍微修改下：有形同陌生人的同班同学自西雅图来，不亦乐乎？一回就熟了吧。O man, but I've never encountered anything like that before, you kidding?! See you.
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Now playing: Cowboy Bebop CD BOX Limited Edition - Waltz for Zizi

Maurice, closing thoughts

Say goodbye to Clive and Cambridge, once so glamorous defying the whole world and blinding the unimportance.

But 'that's finished', said Scudder in the boathouse.

Their reunion doesn't touch me as much as the general idea of an ideal. Clive nipped it. Maurice died for it. The rebirth is only paying due justification to the hurt. How should it end otherwise when Forster's standing on the rebel's side?

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Maurice blew out his cheeks, and began picking flowerets off a tall stalk. They vanished one after another, like candles that the night has extinguished.

*

Maurice opened his hand. Luminous petals appeared in it. 'You care for me a little bit, I do think,' he admitted, 'but I can't hang all my life on a little bit. You don't. You hang yours on Anne. You don't worry whether your relation with her is platonic or not, you only know it's big enough to hang a life on. I can't hang mine on to the five minutes you spare me from her and politics.'

*

To the end of his life Clive was not sure of the exact moment of departure, and with the approach of old age he grew uncertain whether the moment had yet occurred. The Blue Room would glimmer, ferns undulate. Out of some eternal Cambridge his friend began beckoning to him, clothed in the sun, and shaking out the scents and sounds of the May Team.

Do it do it do it do it!

Very excited at the idea of starting our own design business. Tramy brought it up and I said, let's do it. Joint venture? Let's see.

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今天的头3卜都是上上签呢O_O As if something good is gonna happen! 心理暗示ing ^^

夕立ちの庭 - 事情一下子明朗了
一番素敵だった日 - 非常开心的一天
Rhythm - 最近精力充沛


原稿，美杜沙版本的Tra


大概涂了一下。

被虫子咬了3处，冒出惊心触目的红块，又肿又痒。再没心情做事了。

Galaxy of love

'Remember to submit the SIN card and death certificate in order to prevent fraud' - notice of security for the deceased.

'Death certificate' struck me as foreign but in second thought, if there's birth cert, surely there's death cert, as morbid as it might sound. Then there's also marriage cert and college diploma. We have so many IDs along the rite of passage. Why does it feel so daunting and unwelcome?

Bought a lot of Body Shop creams and lotions for my mum. The problem is, my mum seldom (almost never = seldom) opens and uses gifts. 'A gift' in her definition is to remain packaged and 'gift-giving-able' so she could give it to someone else when the occasion comes. Not even something I handpicked for her would escape her conventional gift filtering system. They do it all the time and the practice totally annoys me. I left a sticker note saying it's FORBIDDEN that she gives those cosmetics away. If I ever find out she does that again, I might as well stop buying gifts. Still they might question why I never bring gifts home. In the past I said I was using their money anyway but someone would remind me 'The gesture is more important even if the money's not yours'. I've never meant it as 'gesture' but if you give it away, you've made it a 'gesture'. What a stubborn funny family.

Two 'thank-you' postcards I mailed to the immigration lawyers. Just wanna keep a soft copy since the design is elegant. I have to mention my work permit expires before my study permit. How ironic is that.


Deers make great appearance in paintings. They're mystic docile beautiful animal!


- The asphalt path in front of my house. The air in Richmond is distinctively refreshing, even better than Toronto. Doesn't take too much effort to appreciate it. But due to extensive use of organic fertilisers (commonly known as shit or dung)in surrounding agricultural fields, weak stench lingers in early morning air, not to the extent I have to hold my breath count to 10 and make a beeline to the office.Still my friend plainly stated 'Richmond stinks'. Alright. She described (no citation) how specialized gliders spread fertiliers in late night and it's not safe to take a breather out the balcony at that time. However my landlord proudly told me 'Richmond is the healthiest city to live in Canada.', something she came across in the newspaper (no citation either).


Decorated the wall this Saturday (hazy effect due to shaky hands) . I laughed to death after revising Jady's photo, how she stole brooms from nuns and pretended to swipe a leafless ground when we visited the garden. Or that time I went to the zoo with Gang. We looked very happy in the photo. It's amazing how that happiness sips through the digital pixels. I also took a lot of photos for guizi before, many of them I consider masterpieces! Narcissistic me speaking.

后遗症

今天干了件非常尴尬的事。

远远看到tTELUS的牌子，想到自己的手机欠账还没付就径直走进去了。我说，I want to set up an autopayment。Telus女问我手机号，报上后她说“没有这个号码。” 还在纳闷怎么回事儿，Telus男友情提醒'That's a Fido number.' 大惊！！很不好意思的道歉，灰溜溜逃走了。

我靠TELUS！ 都是因为这周每天都给Telus打电话叫他们来公司装线，本来说周三的，结果因为非常复杂的内部原因迟迟搞不定，总之那个服务真是欠揍！

去Staples买cutting board，人狂多，才意识到撞上了Back to School销售季节。汗，什么时候不好赶上这热闹。看学生家长走来走去买书包买文具买打印机，原来自己已经不是学生了呀=) 强烈的脱离感。还在苏州的时候经常和妈妈去逛东来仪，是当地老牌的文具店。以前底层全是铅笔盒之类的，现在被手机霸占了。小学的时候为了要一个50块钱?的铅笔盒和妈大吵，后来拗不过我就买下来的。再摆个十年二十年的铁定是收藏品了，盒盖很厚因为里面镶嵌着3D的家具模型，有两层楼，桌椅摆设都做得很精致。现在都用笔袋了，要不就是简易设计的铁皮盒。那文具盒就像沉重奢华的大摆钟，古董一个了。

Hanson的One More很感人。

When I think of you

When I think of you
I get a little tired my eyelids open and close
mercury is weighing between my ears
slipping back and forth back and forth
And soon I fall asleep, not knowing what it is

好几年没写信了，以前玫送的澳大利亚土著人花纹的信封竟打不开。仍旧是崭新的颜色，但因纸张吸潮封合处已牢牢粘住，只好用刀划个口把啰里啰唆的家信照片一股脑儿灌进去。

Sherry依旧为男朋友难觅一事叹气着。我不冷不热，好像一直都不太积极。

September entertainment list

> Preordered Harry Potter book 1-7 adult edition from Amazon.ca (very big savings)
> Michael Ondaatje - Elimination Dance
> Maurice DVD
> GARNET CROW - SPARKLE & Crystallize

First item is advanced from Oct (official release date is Oct 1st). That makes me feel better... I'm a medium spender. Restrict meal expense to <8 bucks per day and I can breathe through this month. After paying back Gang, I'll be bankrupt again.

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Now playing: Hanson - Your Illusion
via FoxyTunes

Shinkai

After watching the cast interview for 'the place promised in our early days', I have a better understanding of Shinkai's aesthetics. Not a whole new understanding revealed in torch light, but rather an reinforcement of the elements that are already evident in his movies.

He said he used to stare out of the railway train for hours and hours wanting to catch everything. There's always something new to see. So he was bound by a nostalgic childhood scenery that becomes an recurring motif. I guess there is indeed something wonderful and meditative about rusty railways nestled quietly in road grass, appearing blotchy and flickery under warm sunlight. The place isn't for trespassing, except when trains whoosh through with the old chunky chunky rhythm. The two parallel lines could lead you somewhere, might be better than where you stand. Most of all the air smells of a slightly baked summer.

Opposed to a preformed image I have of him, shy and taciturn, Shikai is actually rather outspoken and he talks in 1.5x average human speech pacing (make it 2.0x when he gets carried away). Still I look at him and couldn't help thinking, this's a sensitive guy who makes feminine, monologue movies where voice overs make up for the lack of actions or a solid story plot. Sometimes I wonder if this 'shortcoming', which forwards itself as a trademark rather than an outstanding defect, can be easily brushed aside. There's no limitation to the type of medium a director chooses to fulfill his artistic needs, but there seems to be too much abandon in the code of free expression. It's the same thing when I look at modern art. The spotlight is on 'the concept' while traditional craftsmanship, the solid skills easily slip unnoticed. Call it heavy make-up?

It would be better if Shinkai could do more than a bunch of nostalgic feelings and pretty screensavers.

Another marathon

又开始slapstick马拉松了，Jady，今天（如果完成不了就明天）的题目是 The chewing gum。哈哈好爽哦~ 随便出怪题~~

今天学到了些和土耳其有关的知识。首先，人家8是发展中国家（大概只有我这么无知的才误认火鸡为贫穷国）。土耳其的货币是里拉（Lira），里拉也是意大利等国的货币，不过我看也只是名字一样，币值没可能一致。之前他们用的是旧币，Old Turkish Lira。当我看到1美元约换一百万土耳其里拉时下巴立刻残废。后来看wiki说近几年用了新币，去掉了6个零。所以说，新土耳其里拉和加元币值相似。1USD约等于1.2 New Turkish Lira。Mavi是土耳其国产牛仔裤牌子，就像加拿大的Roots一样。现在的公司是服装出口业的，好歹也该对品牌有所了解。说实话，牛仔裤我只知道Levis。。。

Heroes第一季看完了，最心爱的Peter竟然。。。 手足情深还真让人感动。他妈妈肯定有诈，Molly说过只有一个人她看不见，是不能看，我猜就是那老女人了！每次看到她松弛的下巴就不爽。

房东其实挺可怜。。。虽然我不想表示怜悯的，因为我以后有可能和她一个处境。三十多未结婚，交了好多男朋友却都不如意。不是一般的不如意，是非常不罩。她的结论是，那些有钱的男人肯定有不可告人的秘密。富男A睡觉需要breathing machine，富男B性无能。普通男A说她“too expensive”，普通男B不敢把她介绍给家人（传统印度家庭，不接受外来人）。没用男A每天来都问她要点小钱，没用男B把她当妈妈看。我听她一一列举她的滑铁卢战役听到一身冷汗，虽然不相信好男人全死光了，但也不得不怀疑寻偶的道路异常曲折。

晚上我窝在客厅沙发看Heroes采访，她早早的洗浴打扮等男友接她去吃饭，等了一个多钟头也不见人影。打电话去催，那男的才似刚想起来要赴约。若是不打电话怕是要放她鸽子。她又等，拿了半杯子红酒去阳台吹夜风，不知过了多久又走回客厅坐下来和我一起看Heroes。我光是坐在那里都觉着过意不去，也不知道该回应什么安慰的话。昨天还开玩笑的鼓励她，You're bound to find a guy who doesn't need a breathing machine，今天的气氛就没那么轻松了。

好在后来那男人还是来了，胡子一圈有点彪悍，我心里惊讶她果然是不在乎种族文化背景云云，但愿能找到个正常点的交往对象安定下来吧。

空虚亦浮躁

疯玩一天，吃早茶，买DVD，看电影，唱k。

物质享受后便是空虚。真的有的时候，我很想回到西园那个池塘旁坐坐，想着池里有的没的千年老鳖。买那么多东西干嘛，把自己的视线听觉填满，把空洞的房间装饰成所谓的家，但眼前这琳琅满目的生活只是浮躁的表现，心里从未得到满足。

空的空的空的空的空的空的空的空的空的。

我只是不想在意别人的想法，安安静静以自己的方式去解决问题去追求。

自己给自己降温，不知道中央冷气够不够力道。看清楚了，看清楚什么才是重要的。

Sponsor a child

World Vision
Sponsor a Child (Canadian page)

I may sound quite passive but it's up to you whether you think a little monthly budget could really help a child. People who travel to visit their sponsored individuals say it does help their basic needs and education. For CAD$35 a month, the price of two CDs , you could help feed the hunger. So consider the option if you have the reserve.

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Hanson is a great band. Closeted fans please step out and take a deep bow.

In the end

it doesn't even matter - Linkin Park
high cliff, rain, rapper , these are the broken images I associate with the music video

We went to a print shop called Xerox color downtown to print our business cards. The design files we had are supposed to be finalized and print-ready but turned out there're a jungle of mistakes or imperfections which needed painstaking adjustments and fine tuning. It took about 4 hours to nail it down. We were mad. The print guy was also demented. And on my way home, I was brainstorming what I'm gonna do over the long weekend, more specifically starting from tonight. I'll do A, B, start a bit of C. D also seems fun to try out. E is a must. So on and so forth. The list runs long and deep into my subconscious world.

And in the end, when I sat down feeling my nerves going numb, I thought. F^&k it. Let's call it a day. I don't wanna do any of it.

This lazing wilting momentum's gotta stop somewhere. Help me get up in the morning, mum.
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